Hollow

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Hollow

An empty space

Lingers in its silence

A dark corner haunts

Places I try to avoid

People’s faces

Are blank and cold

Everything I knew

Has left my reality

Leaving behind

My hollow soul

-J. Lefever

(12/11/13)

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Slither

 
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Slither
 
Like a snake in the garden
You are unwanted
Slithering through the green
Around you, like
You belong
Something holds me back from
Telling you so,
Fear
Oh I’m sure
Afraid of your poisonous bite
Poison seeping through its victims
Veins, crawling and killing
Until all that is left is
Its weak abandon
Shell of a girl I once was
You have taken everything
From me
Left me weak & alone
Many nights, tears fall in sadness
Wonder as to why
I was the victim of your
Own demise
As you came to me
Your poison came to
There was no escaping
Your reality
Like the snake that you are
Poisoning my delicate soul
Only to make me like you
But, listen
My heart will never be like you
My heart will never be black and blue
I am the sun that takes over the cloudy day
Eventually my light will
Be too bright for you
And just like you came
You will slither away
As empty as you arrived
Seeking someone to suffocate
 
~ J. Lefever ~
Written sometime in March…
 
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Float

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Float
 
I want to be invisible, for now
Nothing for anyone to see
Moments & memories
My imprints of my past, gone
Like a feather floating in the breeze
A little piece of nothing important
Floating bye for no one to see
 
No one notices something that is
Nothing, when there is nothing
To see
 
I like the feeling of detachment
Rendering me in a calm state of mind
Awareness has slipped away with the wind
Swallow me world & make me invisible
Make me nothing for the world to see
 
 
Look at me, I’m not really here
I’m so empty today, you see
I float through the minutes of this day
Aware that I need not be
Anything important
I am nothing to see
 
I can go anywhere today
Be anywhere that I want to be
And still, not really be there
That’s what it feels like
When you feel like nothing
I am invisible
No one can see my sad heart
No one notices my tears that fall
Gently down to the ground
Landing in a soft pool of wetness
Representing a soul that is broken
No one notices my empty hands
Wanting to be held
Wanting to be safe and warm
Waiting to feel like I’m someone
 
Is it okay if I isolate today
What will it matter
If I just literally slip away
When I’m here, you don’t seem to listen
When I’m there, you don’t even see
It’s like I’m just imagining
My importance to you
So instead of pretending
I will just go
Don’t worry, my dear
You won’t notice a thing
Nothing will change when nothing goes
Away with me, with just me to be
I love you but you don’t even see
That I’m invisible to you
And it’s damaging me
 
I’ll float somewhere else
Where nothing else matters
 
~ J. Lefever ~
 
This piece was written in regards to… something inside… of me, or maybe someone else… either way, it is real and it is my sadness today…
Do you ever just want to float away?
 
 
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Fortress Walls

Fortress Walls

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Yellow, red and brown

Leaves that paint the tender ground

Sprinkled around the fortress walls

My fortress where my heart calls

Into the air

Out its windows

Trapped up behind the walls

Brick upon brick

I call to you

To anyone who

Will answer to my

Beckoning voice

I make not, huge demands

Just simplicity, in someones hands

To have and to hold

Away from this cold

This fortress, so strong

So carefully built

Upon rock and mountain

Hidding fear and guilt

I stand at its window

Looking down below

To see the colors of Fall

Scattered around my fortress walls

Should I just jump

Release my spirit from it all

Soar through the air

Away from the Fortress walls

And If I land

Back on the ground

Will I hear my fortress call

Luring me back behind its walls

~ J. Lefever ~

(02/21/13)

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