There are moments when the last thing I need is to be alone. Sometimes when I get lost in my head, it is a very dangerous place to be. My mind can wonder, it can worry and it can talk me into thinking that things are much worse than they really are. Sometimes I need to humble myself and realize that even though I think I have all the answers, I don’t, and it’s not in my best interest to be alone with my thoughts.
On the flip side, being alone allows me to look at every aspect of what I’m going through and internalize it to best fit my mental, emotional, spiritual and/or physical needs. When I am faced with tough things in life, whether it’s self-induced, something traumatic or tragic that is out of my control or smaller difficulties that have an emotional connection or not, I need moments to myself where I can really just sit and think about how I am affected by the situation and the best way to get through it. Because honestly, as selfish as this sounds, the most important person in my life, is me. I will always have me, I can always count on me and I can’t go anywhere where I escape me. No matter what, I will always be there.
It takes confidence, some internal stability and independence to be OK with being alone. I have always enjoyed my alone time, and not just to get through tough moments, but to also be still, to relax and unwind. It’s nice to go home to a quiet house sometimes. It’s nice to run errands alone or exercise by my self. I get all that good thinking done. I also think that spending time with just myself, allows me to continue to get to know myself, thus continuing to build the most important relationship I will ever be in.
There is a famous saying, “You cannot love another, unless you love yourself first,” I believe this to be so true and one of the pieces of wisdom’s that I was told at a very young age, yet, took years to understand fully, and even further, to practice and live by this knowledge and very wise piece of advice. I cannot remember who the first person was that told me this, but if I knew, I would definitely find a way to thank them. I will be passing this wisdom on, and I have, to those who are in need of hearing it. Now, just because I was told this little bit of knowledge, and had the words running through my mind, that was all it was at first, words. The knowledge of this wisdom came many years later, many years, after I had served more time in my life, learning to love myself after I have fallen, screwed up and done things that I regret. Self forgiveness, or forgiving another, is one of the hardest things I have ever tried to do, and to do honestly. Just because I say I forgive, doesn’t mean that I actually do. Forgiveness is within, it is for my own soul first, not just for the one who is being forgiven. And when a person needs to forgive themself, whether they say it or not, they truly know within if they mean it.
I’m never alone, but I’m alone all the time. I say this because even in the busyness of my day, each week, all month-long, with my job responsibilities and other appointments or obligations and dinners and events in the city, no matter where I am, I can be surrounded by people and still experience moments where I’m alone. I say this because even though I have people in my life, the ones who are in my spirit and soul are only one or two… and for me, that is perfect. I am not often completely alone, but when I am, I grately appreciate those moments. And even when I am with others, either family or out in public, I’m still just surrounded with the physical beings of others, but my spirit, is alone…
…and the time you have is precious, it is priceless… you can’t ever get time back. Like this moment, you will never get this moment ever again. So why chose to live anyother way, than the best & most happiest ways you can? Why waste even a single minute when you only live once?
It took all of my twenties before I felt this comfortable in my own skin, and wearing my own shoes! Today, I wouldn’t change places with anyone! I see things today that I have never seen before. My past, all of my mistakes, and all of my success, has given me this wonderful collective wisdom, intuition and insight, experience with my age and knowledge that I have been taught by the most important person, me! And the best part, no one can tell me otherwise. I’m OK when I’m alone. In fact, I really like it. The title of this post is in face a lyric in a song. In the late 90’s, grunge rock was very popular, and I was a huge fan of the band, Bush. I still have a girlie crush on the lead singer, Gavin Rossdale. The song was ‘Glycerine’, on the Bush album, ’16 Stone’. I have remembered the words to that song all of these years, and when I read today’s ‘Daily Prompt’, I knew exactly what I would write about!! That’s all for now…