Miraculous Me

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Miraculous Me

 

In the break of the morning

A pause in the moment

My mind gathers its thoughts

And I realize my reality

 

I have come so far

From the deepest depths of despair

To the brightest shooting stars

Soul shinning with every step I take

 

Yes, this is all true

I can finally say I’ve done something

I can finally say that I am alive again

Living my life, through and through

 

I think of the battles

Of all the mountains I had to climb

Yesterday was to tougher than most

But I made it, I actually survived

 

I stand in my kitchen

Pouring coffee and making toast

The simplest of routine tasks

Render me quite grateful indeed

 

When you find yourself lost

Inside of your dark troubles

You forget to be thankful

For the little things most people take for granted

 

But miraculous me

Gives thanks for those things

For my battles and victories

For my life and for me…

 

~ J Lefever ~

(05/17/13)

 

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Noise

 

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Noise

 

Patter patter patter

Sound is unknown

Coming from somewhere

This place is not my home

 

Waking from a slumber

The land of my dreams

Subconscious mind is speaking

Inside my mind I scream

 

Open my eyes

Into the light of day

Room feeling foreign

Something safe I pray

 

Noises at my window

Water drops pattering upon

Will I walk into nothing

In the space I don’t belong

 

Time has stolen my innocence

Yet my hope it still remains

Without my internal faith

I’d go crazy insane

 

I carry this hope

My light inside my heart

Everywhere I go

Or else I’d fall apart

 

Tiny noise brings me back to life

Another day I will be brave

Never giving up on me

Eternal mission is to save

 

Even though I don’t belong

I feel like I don’t quite fit

I have this love inside my soul

For me, I’ll never quit

 

I am one among the world today

A true example of energy

Bound and determined to stand up tall

Do everything I need to save me…

 

~ J Lefever ~

(04/04/13)

 

 

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Disappear

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Disappear

 
Sometimes I just want to disappear
Uncomfort sits with me too long
Everything looks to me like fear
Hearing the same repetitive song
 
So untrusting I seem to be
Of all the worlds residents & things I see
I live my life like I’m playing a game
Too proud to show anyone my shame
 
Who better to speak the truth
To tell of the past few years
Than a woman with the scars
Who’s words bring her to tears
 
Some of us are shown some things
That are harder to believe are real
The test is if we remain standing
Even after the pain we feel
 
Pain inside cannot be measured
Our hearts are not built the same
Each one of us have different pieces
As we are each given our own name
 
To disappear into the air
Maybe isn’t the right step
If I don’t chase my happiness now
I won’t have anything left
 
~J. Lefever~
(04/19/13)
 
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My Triumph

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My Triumph
 
The silence has been broken
By the music of my mind
Distant visions playing
With things I’ve left behind
 
 
 
It’s only just a moment
You know you’re better than this
Take control of your spirit
Control of anything you wish
 
 
I am guarded by many fences
In the center of things unknown
I am much more intricate
Then the things I may have shown
 
 
Inside of my sensitive soul
My innocence prevails
I have so much more to tell you
The words I speak entail
 
 
Consequently I’ve lost control
Running somewhere to be
I feel like it’s impossible
For me to freely be me
 
 
My air is thick and heavy
Surviving in my kingdom
I persevere in every moment
Having triumph in my freedom
 
 
I fly on my own wings
With the rising of each sun
Until my dying breaths
Into this world I come
 
 
 
~J. Lefever~
(04/18/13)
 
 
This is a piece of strength, acceptance and resilience… because I may fall down, but my soul is good and I never give up, I never stop fighting for myself and I never hand my spirit over to someone trying to put out my spark…
 
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Another Day to Breathe

Another Day to Breathe

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Eventually

The storm subsides

The waters run calmly

Back to the way

They were before

Returning us to

Serenity of the world

 

I find myself here

 

Storms in the wild

Are like storms of the soul

They come on

Sometimes out of nowhere

Yet, others

Are more predictable

If we listen to the

Warnings of our heart

 

I can hear my heart beating faster

 

Our minds & our souls

Are in rhythm with

These elements

Thunder crashing

Rain pouring down

Winds whipping everything about

Just like our emotions

In a storm of the heart

 

Our souls rain too

 

Cleansing of the spirit

Washing away

Dirty residue

Of the pain we feel

Through out the course

Of our lives

 

My soul has seen many storms

 

Moments can come

They can hurt so bad

Seeing our way through

With progress

Not perfection

Strengthens our lessons

Even just a little

Giving us a reason

To wake up to see

Another day

 

I am awake for the moments of my life

 

Defeat is in the way

We look at our victories

How did I come to

Speak my words

On this very day

Through perseverance

Courage & conviction

 

I never gave up, you see

 

That is how I get to breathe another day

 

~ J. Lefever ~

(03/25/13)

 

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To Be Me

To Be Me
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Untamed & wild
I run with the wind
A world without fences
No forcible strength
Can hold me down
I am alive & free
Connect the dots
My life is a miracle
From one point to another
I make my Soul Shine
That is mine
No one can take that from me
I wake up to experience
Extraordinary excellence
All around me
The air
The world
The people we see
There is true beauty
Everywhere
Can your eyes open up
Enough to see it?
Stop and breathe
Everything around you
What are your ideas?
I make a tiny impression
On the world as a whole
Tiny because there are many of us
Yet, I’m extraordinary
Because there is only
One of me
I am enough
For me
I am surviving
In my world without fences
I get to be
On my own
Free
Where ever I find myself
That is exactly where I
Am supposed to be
~ J. Lefever ~
(03/24/13)
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Finding Solitude

This is a Poetic Duet written by Hastywords & Think. Speak. Tryst.

Always a pleasure exchanging words with Miss Hasty, who truly is a part of my heart. We have a sweet gift of being able to connect on a really deep level… We also believe that there is a possibility that we were separated at birth!

To me, this piece represents a spirit that needs to be free. It’s a piece about not wanting to be tied down in one place for too long. Obviously, I relate because it is the kind of spirit I have. One that looses its fire when it’s been trapped, imprisoned in the city, told it has nowhere to go and that everything I need is here…Well, I beg to differ.

I often write about how different we all are. So why do some think that what makes them happy, also makes everyone else happy? That is just ignorance. My happiness is different from others, this I know! Just because some people may be fine living their lives in one place, and never being free to see other wonderous places of this wonderful earth, that is certainly not my happiness. My spirit needs to go… My spirit needs to be free… That is who I am… Everyday, this place sucks more light out of me… You can see it in my eyes, if you look, my spark is gone….

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Finding Solitude

 

Sand feels like velvet

Smooth & white underneath me

Imprinting my body’s curves

On the canvas of the Earth

 

The beach absorbing me

Taking me as I am

Pulling me into its gravity

As I inhale the sky above me

 

I brought my soul here

To sit in the salty air

Only for a day, to

Be free of my life entirely

 

My bare figure basking in rays

As seabirds cry me a song

The crashing waves a symphony

As my worries get washed away

 

Imagining my life was never mine at all

I absorb the earth’s elements

Becoming one with my surroundings

The sea has been calling to me

 

I lay here for days, nobody sees me

Praying mother earth will dissolve me

I implore the heavens above

To demand the surf to take me

 

Take me and wash away my mind

Worries and pain are gone with the sea

Becoming one with the land, the beach & the sand

I find solitude in my wishes today

  

Written by Miss Hasty & Miss Tryst

This is the second piece Hasty Girl & I have written on solitude…

 

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