Guilty Too
A test of my strength
Forgiving I need to be
Its been only hours since
Since your actions hurt me
I tell of a time
When we were both kind
Walking side by side
Your heart was inside mine
Battling disappointment
My anger subsides
Remembering the moment
That my spirit died
In that four-cornered room
The cell of my shame
My faith came to same me
From my internal pain
You told me what I had done
What you wanted me to do
I have lived up to my word
Given you all you asked me to
I made you worry all the time
You said I broke your heart
So I promised to mend
The pieces that fell apart
I remember the promises
I made that day
Promises to shelter
Myself in the rain
I give you no reason to put me down
You have no reason to cry for me
Yet you still throw my yesterday
As if the present you can’t even see
I still face a mountain
As I have said before
Yesterday is gone
I Walk through the next door
I’m not the only guilty one
You have been hurtful too
I’m still trying to forgive
The past I’ve had with you
~J. Lefever~
(04/26/13)
This is a piece about my mom. It’s very personal. But I feel the need to clarify who I’m speaking about…