A Day Like Any Other ♥

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A Day Like Any Other…

When the sky tells me

It is going to storm

It whispers it’s soft warning

As if not to frighten me away

 

Just like my kingdom

I have storms inside my soul

Wild and raging with emotion

Unpredictable and out of control

 

It is true that I am guarded

I am free but trapped by something else

An invisible force that is most wicked

Has stolen my every ability to trust

 

As the clouds darken above me

A message of what is to come

Like elements we cannot tame

There is nothing, I’ve come undone

 

I live in constant fear

When I look others in the eye

I’m looking for something decent and pure

So far, others have only made me cry

 

I still think the world is worth my time

But I keep searching for something that I don’t find

It’s more a dream, a wish, a belief

Than the reality of the world I may leave behind

 

It’s like we are all just empty shells

Walking around, in programmed motion

No one really has a functioning soul

We are weak if we show our deepest of emotion

 

~ J. Lefever ~

(04/20/13)

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Last Night Emotions

Last Nights Emotions

Through the thickest part

Of the trees

You could see light

Peeking through

Reaching out to touch you

I remember the air

That day, it was so thick

Heavy like the weight on my heart

Echos of the night

I am running from today

Don’t seem to want to leave

Me alone

I sit & I pray

I feel like I’m suffocating

Stuck, standing still

In the city

It has its grasp on me

Tight, like I’m in shackles

Will I ever get out of here

Will I ever reach the sea

To see a new dawn

The tangerine horizon

Sunsets more beautiful than

My midwest mind can imagine

This city here

Drowns its people

I’ve seen it many times

I pray to not be a victim

But to run when the chance arrives

To the place my spirit belongs

I cannot spread my wings here

Trapped, confined, consumed

In a city that is not my home

I don’t belong here

So why am I held back

In the arms of the unwanted

My emotions scream these truths

Yet silent, I cry

I don’t belong here

I need to fly

~ J. Lefever ~

(03/27/13)

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Slither

 

 

Slither

 

Like a snake in the garden

You are unwanted

Slithering through the green

Around you, like

You belong

Something holds me back from

Telling you so,

Fear

Oh I’m sure

Afraid of your poisonous bite

Poison seeping through its victims

Veins, crawling and killing

Until all that is left is

Its weak abandon

Shell of a girl I once was

You have taken everything

From me

Left me weak & alone

Many nights, tears fall in sadness

Wonder as to why

I was the victim of your

Own demise

As you came to me

Your poison came to

There was no escaping

Your reality

Like the snake that you are

Poisoning my delicate soul

Only to make me like you

But, listen

My heart will never be like you

My heart will never be black and blue

I am the sun that takes over the cloudy day

Eventually my light will

Be too bright for you

And just like you came

You will slither away

As empty as you arrived

Seeking someone to suffocate

 

~ J. Lefever ~

Written sometime in March…

 

 

 

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Finding Solitude

This is a Poetic Duet written by Hastywords & Think. Speak. Tryst.

Always a pleasure exchanging words with Miss Hasty, who truly is a part of my heart. We have a sweet gift of being able to connect on a really deep level… We also believe that there is a possibility that we were separated at birth!

To me, this piece represents a spirit that needs to be free. It’s a piece about not wanting to be tied down in one place for too long. Obviously, I relate because it is the kind of spirit I have. One that looses its fire when it’s been trapped, imprisoned in the city, told it has nowhere to go and that everything I need is here…Well, I beg to differ.

I often write about how different we all are. So why do some think that what makes them happy, also makes everyone else happy? That is just ignorance. My happiness is different from others, this I know! Just because some people may be fine living their lives in one place, and never being free to see other wonderous places of this wonderful earth, that is certainly not my happiness. My spirit needs to go… My spirit needs to be free… That is who I am… Everyday, this place sucks more light out of me… You can see it in my eyes, if you look, my spark is gone….

 

Finding Solitude

 

Sand feels like velvet

Smooth & white underneath me

Imprinting my body’s curves

On the canvas of the Earth

 

The beach absorbing me

Taking me as I am

Pulling me into its gravity

As I inhale the sky above me

 

I brought my soul here

To sit in the salty air

Only for a day, to

Be free of my life entirely

 

My bare figure basking in rays

As seabirds cry me a song

The crashing waves a symphony

As my worries get washed away

 

Imagining my life was never mine at all

I absorb the earth’s elements

Becoming one with my surroundings

The sea has been calling to me

 

I lay here for days, nobody sees me

Praying mother earth will dissolve me

I implore the heavens above

To demand the surf to take me

 

Take me and wash away my mind

Worries and pain are gone with the sea

Becoming one with the land, the beach & the sand

I find solitude in my wishes today

  

Written by Miss Hasty & Miss Tryst

This is the second piece Hasty Girl & I have written on solitude…

 

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Mad Metropolis

 

Mad Metropolis

 

Corruption inside my soul

Someone pulled the trigger

Pointed it at my heart

And let it all go

 

On the streets of desperation

Shadows keep walking by

Ghosts of many nightmares

Walk upon us everyday

 

They own the city

This mad circus, untamed

Charming us senseless

With tricks and toys of the visual kind

 

Lurking in the curtains of Midnight

Representation of my spirit

Mirrored into the air

I can feel my breath leaving my body

 

Wanting to scream, something careless

Words to pierce the soul of the wicked

Force that follows me, shattering their strength

In to a million, unfixable pieces, on the floor

 

Turning the tragedy and sadness their way

For once, I have the force field to

Prevent the fatal future the streets of this

Maniac metropolis poison us slowly with

 

Yes, the city has gone mad

I can’t run from its taunting laughter

Into the streets, upon streets

Every block just the same as the last

 

City is mad

Someone pull the trigger

Let the maniac go and

Release us from its painful grip

 

The world is just a metropolis

Gone mad

 

~ J. Lefever ~

(03/19/13)

 

This piece is dedicated to my brother. He would understand what I mean by these words. ( ~Sis )

 

 

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Fortress Walls

Fortress Walls

Yellow, red and brown

Leaves that paint the tender ground

Sprinkled around the fortress walls

My fortress where my heart calls

Into the air

Out its windows

Trapped up behind the walls

Brick upon brick

I call to you

To anyone who

Will answer to my

Beckoning voice

I make not, huge demands

Just simplicity, in someones hands

To have and to hold

Away from this cold

This fortress, so strong

So carefully built

Upon rock and mountain

Hidding fear and guilt

I stand at its window

Looking down below

To see the colors of Fall

Scattered around my fortress walls

Should I just jump

Release my spirit from it all

Soar through the air

Away from the Fortress walls

And If I land

Back on the ground

Will I hear my fortress call

Luring me back behind its walls

~ J. Lefever ~

(02/21/13)

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